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Ansisters Event August 2005

patterns

Detail from the performance 'Patterns Outside My Head' by Janine Lewis, Rantebeng Makapan and Bonisile Nxumalo. As part of the FACE Ansisters 2005 event, Constitution Hill, Johannesburg.

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studio : participants : sarah fraser

SARAH FRASER
From London
Art Ritual
Running as ritual
Ansister Gathering

sarah fraser

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SARAH'S BOWL

sarah F's bowl

Sarah's art ritual, London.

sarahFsBowl02

Art ritual completed.

SARAH'S ROOM



Sarah's room with a view in London.

Sitting in London

I am sorry I missed this session, I am settling in London, an adjustment that is not all easy. I was relieved to get back onto the ansisters site and read about what has been going on, aswell as some of the inspiring texts on the site. I have not given much further thought to my contribution (so many other things have been on my mind), but now I feel renewed interest. Perfomimg the ritual might just be the thing I need to get back a more focused sense of purpose in this new and strange place. So I hope to have something soon, in the mean time, enjoy the sun :) Sarah

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Posted by Sarah to ansisters <http://ansisters.blogspot.com/2005/04/saturday-2-april-breaking-bowls.html>  at 4/7/2005 04:58:54 PM

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Ansisters: Art Ritual

by Sarah Fraser

It took me a very long time to decide what to do for the Art Ritual, involving making two identical bowls, imbuing them with meaning, filling them with a bounty and then destroying one of them. Part of the reason that i found it difficult to make decisions was because of relocating to the UK in the middle of the initial stages of the ansisters project. My attention was split on hundred of things, amongst others, trying to get confirmation that i was making the right decision by going, saying goodbye to a phase of my life and basically, all that has been familiar to me up until now. Needless to say all the practical arrangements that needed to be made took priority.

I decided that instead of trying to do something that did not relate to what was going on in my life, i had to try and connect the move and the ritual. I wanted to make a vessel that suggested journey, stepping in the footprints of my ansisters, I wanted to make shoes, a theme that i have already been working with for the past year or so. When it came to the crunch, i still had not managed too do anything much before i left. When I arrived in London, there were huge adjustments to be made. I did feel an intensified feeling of loss, of all my support and identity in many ways. This partly related to being away from my usual environment and support structure, and partly on the largeness of this city. I got the sense that i was being swallowed up and that i was losing something precious that i had not even valued before. In a way I was the vessel that went through a trans formative process that destroyed some aspect of myself.

I wanted to do something that would be able to express these thoughts and experiences in their complexity, but also keep to the simplicity of the brief. I chose six of my ansisters, some of them alive, some of them who have gone ahead, and others who are women who have had a great impact on my life, how i see things and who i am. I decided to work in textiles because i have been working in this medium for a couple of years now, in work that strongly relates to exploring heritage, relationships and coding. I chose a colour of thread for each ansister, a colour code for each one, and wrapped about seven pebbles in the thread for each, this would be my bounty. As i bound each pebble, i though of each person. On that particular day i was really feeling lost, i was missing home, i really felt like i was in the dregs. The repetitive motion, was soothing in a way, or at least it was something simple to focus on. I crocheted a bowl out of red wool, this was something that i took with me to do on tube trips. I see it as embedding my everyday experience into the bowls.

The time had come for the ritual. I went with my friend in search of a sacred place to perform the ritual. I wanted it to be a place that not only I would find sacred, but one that i could imagine all the ansisters i was celebrating, finding sacred. We went to a park, finding a the peace and beauty to the place fresh and restoring, almost magical. I placed the bowl under a large tree which was in blossom and started to unravel the bowl. I suspected that the threads on the pebbles would tangle with the wool and each other as the bowl was unravelling. I though that this was symbolic of the way in which ansisters are connected to each other – as separate threads which are sometimes so thoroughly tangled together, that it is impossible to separate them without something snapping. I saw the stones as aspects of the women that i wanted to remember and some that i wanted to release. Before the bowl completely unrevelled, I did in fact have to snap and untangled some of the threads. This relates for me to the cycles in relationships and lives. By the end the stones had all toppled out of the bowl and i was left with a bundle of squiggly wool. I left the pebbles there to further tangle, but as i walked away, i thought of them as a type of cairn.

New layers of meaning and ideas seem to grow from this ritual as I think about it more. What is important for me is that it was not only paying homage to my ansisters, but it was a rebirth of art making for me, for which i am very grateful, I left feeling more grounded an as if i had taken part in some kind of initiation rite, which connected me with the rest of the constellation and with my creative self. I found the ritual profoundly healing and comforting.

Posted 2 May, www.face.org.za, author: Sarah Fraser.

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Running as ritual

by Sarah Fraser

After saturday's meeting, I wished that I had said what i had wanted to say about what i have been working on and thinking about. So i'll use this space... may be less scarey...

I am on my way to the UK at the end of march. It was quite a sudden decision that i made mid january, and I have been stewing over it since. At first I did not see how i would fit this project in with the rest of my plans, aswell as trying to complete my art history at unisa. Then it struck me that this project is very appropriate to what i am doing and the space that i am in at the moment. I'm trying to close things off, mend relationships before i go, decide what i need to pack and take with me, and what i want to leave behind, so that i can start afresh. I am terrorfied and excited. this quote gives me some confirmation on the decision:

if you don't go out in the woods, nothing will ever happen and your life will never begin CP Estes -Rowing songs for the Night Sea Journey

What I have been thinking of is a bowl that is also a vehilce of sorts, and then it struck me, I was frustrated, worried feeling lost and insecure about my decision. The negativity was poison. So I put on my running shoes and stepped out onto the pavements that I have known since my childhood. As i ran I felt the rythmn, the air cooling, and then i knew what my ritual had to be... running. That my vessels would be shoes, that i would be mapping out the paths walked by my ansisters, with my own steps.

It felt like the poison was being released, pushed out by fresh air and calm and comfort in the feeling that i had managed to do something to combat my neagtivity. I felt healed and soothed as i made my way back home. I need to think about all this more, but more importantly, get working on it.. then i will have more to say.

Posted by Sarah to ansisters
<http://ansisters.blogspot.com/2004/12/notice.html>  at 2/15/2005 12:09:05 PM

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2nd ansister gathering

by Sarah Fraser

After saturday's meeting, I wished that I had said what i had wanted to say about what i have been working on and thinking about. So i'll use this space... may be less scarey...

I am on my way to the UK at the end of march. It was quite a sudden decision that i made mid january, and I have been stewing over it since. At first I did not see how i would fit this project in with the rest of my plans, aswell as trying to complete my art history at unisa. Then it struck me that this project is very appropriate to what i am doing and the space that i am in at the moment. I'm trying to close things off, mend relationships before i go, decide what i need to pack and take with me, and what i want to leave behind, so that i can start afresh. I am terrorfied and excited. this quote gives me some confirmation on the decision:

if you don't go out in the woods, nothing will ever happen and your life will never begin CP Estes -Rowing songs for the Night Sea Journey

What I have been thinking of is a bowl that is also a vehilce of sorts, and then it struck me, I was frustrated, worried feeling lost and insecure about my decision. The negativity was poison. So I put on my running shoes and stepped out onto the pavements that I have known since my childhood. As i ran I felt the rythmn, the air cooling, and then i knew what my ritual had to be... running. That my vessels would be shoes, that i would be mapping out the paths walked by my ansisters, with my own steps.
It felt like the poison was being released, pushed out by fresh air and calm and comfort in the feeling that i had managed to do something to combat my neagtivity. I felt healed and soothed as i made my way back home. I need to think about all this more, but more importantly, get working on it.. then i will have more to say.

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Posted by Sarah to ansisters <http://ansisters.blogspot.com/2004/12/notice.html>  at 2/15/2005 12:09:05 PM

Posted 31 March 2005, Ansister site, author: Sarah Fraser.

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